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So sorry for my mistakes, sorry for the repetition, sorry for it all, trying to understand this dark and gloomy world that has taken me over. I hold myself ever so sorrowfully, wondering how horrible I truly am to be in this undeserving position filled with these admonishing emotions. I cry. The world as I imagine it crashes thunderously in my mind. I envision the worst as the worst unfolds, the demonizing hands in this darkness clutch my thoughts, pulling me down deeper into despair. I can feel them engulfing my mind, pulling and stretching my thoughts and imagination into a world where fears abound; scratching at me, trying to take a piece, leave their mark. Oh, how I cry. I touch the rolling tears, wondering how such softness can come while I am trapped in such a ghastly world. But, I am not there. I am here. I am wondering, and I smile. This ever-creeping awareness comes to mind, bringing with it my hopes, my dreams, my joys, and my beliefs in myself. I laugh at my own foolishness, flicking the water playfully, watching as it falls, each drop racing the other before splashing invisibly into the rolling water. Gone is my self-pity, my sorrow, my fears, my disappointments as waves of buried treasure begin to surround me, bubbling to the surface. Colors begin to tease my eyes; blues, whites, and pinks play hide-and-seek. Jewels of possibilities begin to form in the bubbles, bringing me glimmers of hopes, dreams, goals, successes, and love in its truest form. Ah, I see it all. Softly, carefully, I scoop a bubble and peer inside, closing my eyes, wishing my greatest desire before blowing gently. Whooooooooo.... |
